The Germination of the Seed

Greetings Seeker.

Are you at a point in your awakening experience where you are becoming aware that there is something that you need to do? You’re not sure what it is, but it seems to be something more than just material activities – you know, like getting a new job, moving somewhere else, getting into or out of a relationship, and so on. There’s something that you need to accomplish in this lifetime and time is running out; does this kind of describe that feeling? It might make you feel a bit anxious or very sensitive to what’s happening in the world. It might be affecting your sleep patterns and, perhaps, even your attitude with others is changing?

I had similar feelings happening to me several years ago. I would attempt to avoid dwelling on those feelings by suppressing them with chemical substances, or distraction activities like work, hobbies, the gym, and other habitual routines. This would work temporarily for a while. Eventually, I realized that avoiding those feelings or suppressing them began to not only lead to physical health consequences, but those inner feelings would come back stronger than before. I also started noticing how compulsive I was. I wasn’t aware of it before, but now I began observing how I would act and talk… “I can’t function in the morning without coffee;” “I need to unwind in the evening with a cigarette and a glass of wine;” “I need these activities in my life or I’m going to be bored.” These were just a few of the compulsory things that my mind was programmed to believe that it needed.

I noticed how this programming was beyond just a mental program – it grew roots into my physical body. I couldn’t fall asleep at night without some sort of mild tranquilizer because my mind was too active and I would jump from thought-to-thought in unending circles. If I didn’t indulge in some substance or some habitual activity, I’d feel unfulfilled – like I needed a fix. It’s like being hungry—the body craves it. I began to understand that my body was an “identity” and it needed to be entertained with dopamine-producing experiences and chemically-produced altered states of mind.

I then began to struggle with these things. While I struggled, I found these internal feelings of needing to do something or to change in some way, began to grow stronger. I tried to tune into where these feelings were coming from; at the same time, I was struggling to avoid the compulsory habits that I developed to avoid these very feelings. This took time and with many ups and downs – just like anything in life that we struggle with. Most people are not super human, at least I wasn’t, so it took time with a lot of quitting and starting over.

I didn’t notice while I was going through it, but I was developing fortitude and small gains in the ability to resist the temptation of the thoughts and sensations that my mind and body were producing; furthermore, I realized that I was battling a machine, and a machine operates 100% from its programming. I would often get angry after witnessing a mechanical reaction to something or when I would do something clumsily which caused a problem or an injury to myself. I knew after-the-fact that I had no conscious control at the time of the event – it was the program. I would often cuss at the invisible man who made it happen, or blame the devil. That anger turned inward, toward the Ego program who was controlling the organism. The positive of all this, is I was beginning to remember myself, the one who was observing the machine. I could begin to analyze a scenario, after it happened, and how I was operating on auto-pilot – completely controlled by emotion. I focused on how the situation unfolded and at what point might I have been able to interfere with the machine and change the course of action.

Once you realize that you are chained to a machine that deceives you (the real you) into thinking you are it, a deep motivation begins to sprout within, and a desire to escape and to “conquer the demon” ensues. I have more details on this program called the Ego and what it actually is, here:

https://seeker333.substack.com/p/the-deception-of-the-ego?r=23hlzm

As a result of analyzing myself critically, I began to remember more and more, what I actually was. Most of all, I began to understand what I was not, an identity-driven machine. Massive changes began to happen in my life. I began to “tune in” to the behind-the-scenes functions within my body. I started identifying and struggling with the things that were triggering me to act or feel a certain way about something or someone. At the same time, I realized that this machine preferred my wits to be numbed while it diverted my awareness into sensory indulgent. This “machine” or program as I prefer to call it, was also struggling to stay in control – it was power hungry. The old saying, “the struggle is real” took on a much more serious meaning to me.

This awareness did not happen overnight. It first started as quick flashes of awareness that were quickly suppressed and forgotten about. I started to remember more and more. It grew like a slow developing muscle within. I learned how to strengthen this by embracing some of the things that made me suffer. I would attempt yoga postures that my body immediately rejected. I would reject the food, drinks and substances that my body craved. I would take cold showers and shock my body. I would sleep little, and meditate often. All of this turned into a practice, and then a lifestyle. I was gaining will-power over the machine. I would imagine Christ vs. the devil, or an angel fighting a demon while I struggled with the body.

Through all this, many things about the world outside of me began to make sense. I started understanding that the world I understood, was projection that was coming out of me – it was part of the same program that was operating the machine. All this time, I thought the machine was me. The real “I” was looking at a mirror in my head, thinking I was seeing myself, but actually I was seeing this programmed machine who had a name, career, and many other characteristics which made it different and “special” from everyone else.

Now that I had developed this concept and deeper understanding, I could apply my will and begin taking over the machine. Before, I had no power against the mind-program—it thought and felt what it wanted, when it wanted. Now, however, through thousands of hours of meditation and reconfiguring the alignment of my body, I have developed this energy body. I felt it sprout in January of 2020. From then on, it has grown like a root-system of an upside-down tree. I can now see these energy roots. They pierce the machine and expand deeper and wider. I’ve come to know Christ and what It is. I’ve come to understand the simulation that our programmed machines are all characters within. I’ve come to understand that this new energy body, that is growing within me, is the key to salvation and escaping the matrix of the programmed machines.

The energy body, also called the Astral body, the emotional body, the Holy Ghost and many other names, is the divine spark. It’s developing to become an eternal being who can dwell in both spiritual and physical worlds. The body is the medium from which It grows. The body is its temple. When this process completes, the body is now controlled by the eternal being and the program ceases to be. Then, when death of the body occurs, it is only the cocoon falling off of the butterfly. This is what many religious texts refer to as becoming “eternal.”

Love the body, for it is meant to evolve your spiritual essence. Make it pure; make it Holy. Only then will the divine spark begin to germinate.  Cultivate it and allow it to grow and take over the machine. When it rises high enough, the two eyes become one and the light above shall fill the machine. This is the Christ force entering the machine – the body’s crucifixion is at hand, and a diamond is born. Shine on the darkness – we are the children of light.