The Simulation, The Self, and the annihiliation of The Ego

The seeker's guide to awakening

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Greetings to all of you seekers. 2023 was quite the year for those who’ve been conscious of the world and how it’s beginning to change in ways that are quite shattering to egos that have been accustomed to perceiving the world as it was. 2024 will be a year that will completely unravel many egos to the point where some will fall into a deeper level of chaos within themselves. Whereas, others, will feel their inner-world begin to transform as they begin to see the Matrix glitch-out on levels unimaginable before. If you’re feeling that there is something wrong with the foundations of reality, then you may be evolving into that second category of those who are seeking to awaken from what can be described as a deep sleep. As one continues to awaken from the instability that’s happening in the outside world, questioning reality in a deeper way will guide the awakening person to seek the answers within. This level of seeking, seeking within, will cause one to develop more profound perceptions into life and the reality we are experiencing in what I call The Simulation, The Self, and The Ego.

Now, I’m going to get into some pretty far-out concepts and you may or may not believe them. The point is though, can you allow your mind to entertain the ideas? This is the key to expanding one’s consciousness. Expanding or raising one’s consciousness is the real purpose behind all the seeking knowledge and spiritual practices. As you let this information come into the mind, try to see it or play the movie in your head as if it was a sci-fi movie. This will start changing the framework within the mind, and allow new and abstract information to generate awareness. Otherwise, this awareness never produces any fruit in the mind because it’s rejected before it has a chance to reach awareness. It’s rejected by a process, or a program. This program is running behind the scenes, and is filtering out your awareness. My discussion will be around this program and how we can target it and eventually override its control over our awareness.

Here are a few concepts that you need to have a good handle on in order for all this to begin making sense: The human mind and body is a biological machine which I will refer to in this article as the human-machine. The reality of everything that we can experience, even our human-machine itself, can be broken down into energy, vibration, and frequency. These 3 terms are synonymous with each other and just having a basic understanding will make the rest of this article more meaningful.

Energy is everything, there’s nothing that you can describe or experience that is not energy. Even your thoughts are energetic. Vibration is the nature of energy. Energy vibrates and different rates. Music with a high vibe has a higher pitch than lower vibe music, right? If you make the sound OHH with your voice and then make the sound AHH with your voice, which one has a higher pitch? The AHH does, right? That’s because the AHH is a higher vibration. If you pay attention, you’ll even notice the vibration in your body when you make these sounds, the OHH is lower in your body, like down in your gut, whereas the AHH is higher like vibration in your chest and throat. Let that understanding sink in, low vibration = lower in the body, higher vibration = higher in the body – I’ll come back to this later. Now, how the vibration is measured is by the wave lengths – which is what is called frequency. So, energy, vibration, and frequency are all the same thing – just the terms are used to characterize the energy, that’s all.

If you can understand this concept of energy, and apply this understanding to the ideas in this article, then those ideas can be much easier understood and then entertained by the mind.

Our human-machine is designed so that you’re able to experience this physical reality as a human being living within a physical world. This physical reality is actually a construct, or a projection that is filtered and decoded by the human-machine. The projection itself is energy, as-is the human machine – all vibrating at various frequencies. The human-machine however, is composed in such a way, that it’s able to process the energy around it – which is the projection - and build a 3-D environment with the information. Your mind uses senses to decode and create the reality that you are experiencing; in other words, the world is only what you can see, hear, smell, touch, and taste. The mind processes the energy that the body is in contact with into physical things or sensations. The reason why you experience some energies as solid materials, and other energies you experience as smells, or sounds, or colors, or flavor, or the sensation of feeling – like texture, temperature, shape, etc., is because each of those is a different frequency and you have a brain that has been developed to decode those specific frequencies into those different types of sensations. That’s it folks – that’s reality and that’s how we are experiencing it. It’s a simulation being processed by your mind.

I’m going to use the term Prime Reality to describe the span of our entire material universe.  If you take all of the known energy within the universe, this is called the electromagnetic spectrum. This spectrum, includes all energies that science is aware of and can measure, plus all the energies that it’s not aware of and cannot measure – so it is essentially our whole universe including what’s beyond the grasp of science. That’s really all you need to understand about the electromagnetic spectrum.

Your body is tuned specifically to experience a very small portion of energy within this entire spectrum of energy. What you are sensing and what you are experiencing as a human through the 5 senses, is actually far less than 1% of total prime reality. So, this should give you some perspective on how limited we are in the ability to observe and interpret our universe. Spirituality, in its essence, discusses that energy that lies outside of the range that the human-machine can decode.

If we are a living organism, then isn’t it also that energy itself is a living organism? Or, is there another component that brings it to life? The simple answer is yes; that other component is consciousness. Consciousness is the power that brings the whole projection to life. Now, it’s important to understand that consciousness is also energy, but a much more subtle energy and is actually the foundation of it all, but that gets very deep in esoteric understanding. Just know that it’s all energy, even your awareness – which is being termed as consciousness.  

Think of the projection of reality as a video game. The game may look real on the screen, but you know that it’s not reality – and you know that’s there’s not actual 3-D dimension in a video game, it only appears that way. The game in its essence, it’s just a complex bunch of electrical signals decoded into particular pixels of colors and sounds to produce an overall image of a 3-D environment. This is not too much different than our reality. However, here on Earth, the reason we cannot walk through objects, fly, or break other natural laws that govern this dimension is because our body’s frequency vibrates differently than the other solid objects around us, therefore you feel the object as solid and impenetrable – the wall is solid because it vibrates at a specific frequency that our brain decodes as solid – and the frequency of the wall and the frequency of the body cannot penetrate one another.

Your body and brain, our human-machine, is first and foremost, a frequency decoder. It also serves as an antenna that also projects frequency. It’s also a memory database. The software that operates the human-machine system is called the ego. So, at an energetic level, the prime level of reality, you are essentially a holographic being experiencing a holographic world in such a way that it appears as reality to you. Your individual identity is just like the character within a video game – only that you believe the character and the game is real. For more details on our human machine and the program that operates it, you should definitely read or listen to my last article called The Deception of The Ego. This article breaks down the ego program and how it basically turns our divine consciousness into a mechanical machine that is linked directly to the video game (which is the reality that we are all currently characters in).

What I’m going to discuss next are some concepts of how our body has the capability of evolving into a higher vibratory machine. This evolution happens when one, on a very deep level, takes conscious action on mastering certain functions of the body. This is when one begins a spiritual practice. When one begins to take conscious control over certain functions of the body, he will then become aware that there is an automatic function, the ego – which acts like a software program. This awareness, is a major breakthrough and life as one understands it, completely changes when this becomes discovered.

This realization happens when certain things happen within the body, because of one’s practice, that break through this barrier in the center of the brain. This barrier is like a mirror. The true you, which is consciousness, has been observing this mirror and believing the reflection was itself and its’ reality; but actually, this image is not the reflection of the self, rather it was the ego and its illusory identity. Up until this point, the ego was making the true you, believe that its self-image, all of its decisions and feelings, and the way it sees and understands the world, were all of Your characteristics. You saw all this as a reflection of yourself. However, once the mirror breaks, you’ll suddenly awaken to the truth; the mirror wasn’t real at all, it was a software program posing as a mirror. This is The Deception of The Ego. When the practitioner realizes this, he can then begin to zero-in on the ego program. Once the practitioner separates himself from the human-machine, the ego loses its control over the machine. As long as the body doesn’t die, consciousness then awakens within the machine. Essentially what happens is that consciousness, the true YOU, realizes that it’s been deceived the whole time.

You’ll never truly understand this until you actually experience it. The reason is, is the ego is in control and it cannot think outside of itself – just like any software program. Only when one develops a practice, or I should say, a lifestyle, that begins to dismantle this mirror program, will one then be able to overpower this mirror program and override it. I cannot emphasize the importance of understanding what the ego is – knowing what it is and understanding that it is the one that’s in control is the key to unlocking this whole evolutionary process. Be sure to read more into here:

Now, I also want to make sure that I’m clear with this one thing, I can only discuss and describe this process of awakening from my own experience. There are other ways that one can liberate himself from the ego and begin evolving into a higher vibratory being, but I cannot speak of those because I’ve only experienced this method. It is a very conscious and direct way and involves tremendous will power. Even going on this specific path, each person’s experience will be significantly different because we all have different identities and different memory databases that we have to contend with. So, understanding this, I’m going to share with you a summary of what may take place and what you might expect if you become self-initiated into a path similar to the one that unfolded for me. Initiation, for the purposes of this discussion, is a term for someone who is a student or devotee in the process of raising their consciousness to the next level.

Breaking the ego can be also be termed as becoming enlightened. In the old days, one would become initiated by priests or special teachers who have attained certain masteries of the human body and who have attained the knowledge taught by the mystery schools. And from there, the student would follow the rules and practices set forth by their teachers, to develop a higher state of being within themselves. This is changing now because the cosmic age that we are coming out of, a very dark age, is ascending into a higher age. Hidden and forbidden knowledge is now becoming available to the average person. If you are seeking a broader understanding of what I mean by “cosmic ages,” you must read my article called The Force Behind the Great Awakening. It discusses in more detail these cosmic patterns that we all are attached to.

Now in order for one to begin the spiritual path, there first has to be a deep burning desire for it. This is key. Perhaps one wants to be healthier, or closer to God, or he or she has some dark habits or dark history and desires it to be purged: fear of death, a feeling of being lost in the world, becoming disheartened with life and unable to be fulfilled, becoming discouraged that one cannot change their nature, whatever reason – there are many. The reason must be compelling enough to get you significantly alter your lifestyle – because one cannot realistically be on a serious path of inner development without making some significant alterations to their outside lifestyle. Furthermore, this desire or this longing, needs to eclipse everything else in life – in other words, it must become the primary driver of one’s conscious actions. Without this desire being the primary force of one’s attention in life, the chances that one will have the discipline or the will to progress successfully through a spiritual process is unlikely. Also understand, the reason or desire for all this, may change when one’s consciousness begins to expand.

If you do have this deep need for knowledge and transformation, then, in my opinion, this is a calling from deep within, perhaps from your true self – who is calling you back to spirit, so that your evolution can begin.

When one begins a spiritual practice, there are many milestones, or layers, that one reaches. As each layer is reached, often it feels like one has reached the moment of triumph, or the reality-changing transformation, only to find himself at the beginning of another level. This process takes one through many obstacles both physical and mental – one onion layer at a time.  Many breakthroughs are experienced when the mind suddenly grasps an understanding, or a technique that enables to devotee to delve a bit deeper within. The mind needs to grasp concepts so that the body can follow without feeling like its wasting energy or time.

The concepts begin to make sense once they are realized within one’s being. This is how it works: as the concept becomes clear in the mind, it is then realized in the body – and this can also happen in reverse. For example, you may not fully understand the concept of chakras or energy centers in the body that connect subtle energy channels that interweave and connect the entire body. You may believe in the theory, but that’s the extent of it, its just a theory. However, once you physically observe or experience one of these energy centers, then the concept that you have in the mind, begins to transform into a truth, a truth that defines your being and raises your consciousness about who you are and what you’re made of. You can then progress farther because you are now conscious of the energy center that is part of your being, whereas just the prior day, you were oblivious to it.

The bottom line is that your reality begins to change as you develop or discover techniques that bring your awareness further within your human-body machine. Another way to get this concept is imaging your hand being cut off. Right now, you really can’t understand not having access to your hand, fingers, grasping things, feeling things with your hand, etc. You can try to imagine it, but its just theory about how it actually is. Once it gets cut off though, you’ll soon completely understand and be conscious of what it’s like to not have a hand. Knowledge through experience, is called Gnosis – the only way of truly understanding something. So, you could say that a spiritual practice is like learning how to swim. You can gather all the knowledge about it, but until you jump in the water and start moving your arms and legs, you won’t fully understand those concepts of how to swim. By actually practicing to swim in real water, the concepts become real and then the body develops the muscle memory and coordination. Only after the body is altered in such a way that it corresponds with what the mind has learned, can one swim. This is how one develops spiritual faculties and can thus attain higher worlds.

Now there is a specific level, that when one reaches it, energies within the body become dislodged or freed from the conformity of bone and tissues. One can then physically feel this energy move about within the body, through nerves and subtle energy channels. At first, it’s quite subtle and short lived, but still noticeable. Often, it starts out as just some tingling sensations traveling through some area of the body such as the arm, leg, or back. You’ve felt these before but most of it was probably associated with numbness like when your arm or leg falls asleep and it begins to tingle as the energy in nerves begin to reconnect to the structure.

However, the difference now is that your attention is focusing the energy, rather than the nerves being pinched off. The word attention is key. Your attention is beginning to override weaker parts of the ego system which doesn’t know anything outside of the body structure. So, when you feel this energy, it’s a bit peculiar because your own inner attention is manipulating it instead of some outside circumstance like if you slept on your arm or something. This is a spiritual faculty being strengthened within you as a result of spiritual practice - like meditation.

All this begins to happen when one starts focusing their attention inwards. Now we have all heard of meditation before and it likely carries different meanings for different people. When one is truly in a meditative state, it means that they observing some level of disconnect from the mind-body machine, and this state of being progresses more and more with practice. It takes some time and practice before one reaches this first level where they can honestly say that they are meditating. The body needs to have a certain level of health for this to happen, and one must be able to have some ability to restrain their awareness from its automatic attachment to the mind-body machine. This takes practice and some techniques. For most who say they are meditating, what they are really doing is practicing to become meditative.

One can sit quietly and say they are meditating, but in reality, they may just be relaxing in a seated posture and assume that they are meditating. Also, one does not fall asleep while meditating. Falling asleep is succumbing to the senses because one has too much attachment to the body. Meditation is the experience when one is detached from the senses, and this detachment has many levels to it. These levels keep going until one is able to actually exit the physical body. And levels continue even after this happens. You could say that when one can fully detach from the mind, that they have become liberated. Thus, then going back into the mind and participating in life is more like playing a video game using your human machine within the simulated reality.

These sensations that one experiences when energies start loosening up in the system, continue to grow as his meditation practice progresses. He continues to strengthen his ability to focus on specific things, which causes more energy to dislodge and travel to the area of focus. Think of the ability to focus as putting pressure on a particular part of the system. This pressure acts like a suction. The more suction pressure you create, the more energies throughout the body, become dislodged and pulled toward the area of focus.

You can also help speed up this process of loosening up energies by having acupuncture, chiropractic adjustments, breathing exercises, and Yoga. Meditation is the foundation of all of it though. The more energies within your body that are free from the system, the more you can gather under your control while you practice to become meditative.

What I refer to as the self-initiation, is when one awakens the dormant energy that lies within the lower energy center. This energy center is called to root, or the Muldahara in yogic language. For this to happen in a more natural and conscious manner, a body should become clean and agile (in other words, Holy), and one should have enough training the he can restrain the mind to a certain degree. This basically turns the spigot on and a force of energy begins ascending up the spine.

EDIT: It should be noted that it isn’t always quite this simple. Everyone has different barriers to deal with, and your energy, if it is consumed in other ways like sexual activities, low energy impressions like certain music, media, and entertainment, poor food choices, chemicals and toxins in the body, etc., can and will prevent this initiation from happening. You need to have enough of your own conscious energy available to help break this first seal.

During this phase of the process, one must have his life organized in such a way that he is able to fully dedicate himself to certain practices without having demanding responsibilities from his outside world. This is an extremely volatile and delicate time and careful planning must be made, otherwise, the chances of complete fallout are highly likely. This could include insanity, losing everything – even one’s family, severe trauma, and even suicide. Its also very important that one’s body is in the proper health and alignment before this massive force is awakened. If you’re familiar with yoga, the postures or asanas, are designed for this purpose. Although yoga here in the west is mostly just an exercise program without the core element – which is mediation and the goal of union. I’ll go over this more in a bit.

Imagine a machine that runs off of 20 amps of power. If you introduce 50 amps to the machine, you’re going to cause some damage, maybe even a fire. Apply this concept to the body. This is what can happen if someone activates this dormant energy before his body can handle it.

This energy has a lot of names depending on what culture you come from and its described in many different religions. Some of the names you might be familiar with are, The Goddess Shakti, Kundalini, The Holy Ghost, The Dragon, the Great Mother, Sophia, Cosmic Energy, The Holy Spirit, Divine Fire, and many others. Its most often referred to as a feminine representation because the energy itself is of the divine feminine, creative force.

The term enlightenment carries a lot of baggage and dogmas; I don’t like to use it but people tend to have developed some concepts about it – and remember, concepts are good if they help the mind to understand. I would say that one reaches the first level of enlightenment when the chemicals in the center of the brain alchemize and electrify the nervous system. It’s not really being electrified, its transforming into light energy – your true essence. Its just like Yoda said, “We are luminous beings.” At this time, the 3^rd eye also opens and one consciously experiences light coming into the body from the 7^th chakra above, which is at the crown of the skull. Glimpses through the 3rd eye are common as one practices. One may see the tree of life coming through a hole at the top of the skull. A beautiful warm light comes through and around the tree. It is bright as the summer sky but does not hurt to look at. You can feel the peace and bliss emanating from it - one yearns to ascend further to go into the hole…. but cannot yet. This is what I often experienced; it may be very different for you.

The light to the ego is like sunlight to a vampire, it burns the ego away. When enough light comes in and fills the body, the ego is no more. This concept brings a true understanding to the New Testament in Mathew Chapter 6, verse 2: The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. There are many other versus in the bible that relate to this evolutionary process that I speak of, but most are concealed in allegory.

Now meditation is a yogic practice, or yoga. The true meaning of Yoga is Union. It’s the practice of evolving the human-body machine to make union with the divine essence, or the source of your being. Christ Jesus taught these principles and the practices to his disciples. He was a true yogi and much of his life was been hidden from public knowledge. In fact, the essence of many of his teachings are concealed in allegories within the bible, the rest were removed. Back then, to teach this knowledge was blasphemy. Christianity, as-well-as the other Abrahamic religions were created in such a way that the truth of our being and where we came from was concealed from public knowledge. The translations were changed and words were given new meanings to obscure the knowledge even more. Even the calendar was altered to conceal the correlation between our body and the Zodiac – and I’m referring to the Gregorian calendar. Bottom line, most things written in the bible are not as we understand them, in fact, much of what was written (the unaltered texts), were allegories referring to bio-psychological processes that occur within the body during one’s journey to liberation (spiritual practice).

The gift that we are given in this current age, is that this liberation can be more easily attained than in previous ages. In older times, one would have to completely detach from society and from family, in order to focus all of one’s attention inwards. This is why you hear of those Yogis and Buddhists from the east spending years in a cave or living in remote areas of the Himalayas and such. This new age however, carries with it the ability to evolve and go through the necessary process, while still participating in society – however one will need to have a particular order set in his life so that the practices and stress levels can all be managed. The reason that one can accomplish this now and not so much in the past, is because the energies are greatly polarized in the current reality that we are all experiencing, as-well-as the evolution of our intellectual brain (neo cortex).

Do you notice how everything seems to be getting extreme now? Extreme behaviors, extreme politics, extreme beliefs, extreme weather, extreme personalities, extreme changes, extreme world events, and so on. The chaos that’s now unfolding is, at a divine level, a cleansing or, a return to the source. This pattern eventually leads to a reconciliation of all things. The bible calls this Armageddon and at the end of the chaos, everyone will be judged – this is the reconciliation. The prophesies know about this time of age because it follows cosmic cycles.

There will be much more intense chaos to come as the foundation of the last age finally gives way and out of the ashes, the new age will rise. We, as a civilization, are like someone in the middle of surgery. Before the surgery, things were getting worse and deteriorating. Then the surgery happened and it was a painful blood bath. Then after the surgery, the body slowly recovers and a new healthy lifestyle ensued.

One must allow the energy to change their consciousness, and this will likely happen at the cause of great suffering. Now, we can and should try to avoid that level of suffering by consciously tuning into what’s happening and choosing to dedicate one’s life to awakening to the eternal, to the true self. You can do this consciously now, instead of waiting for circumstances to force you into the surgery room, or worse, you lose the chance in this life because of death or extreme circumstances. Once you awaken to the eternal, you become eternal, and you will be liberated from the chaos of this realm.

This rabbit hole that our civilization is about to plunge into, goes deeper than a mind can ever comprehend. Some minds will crack from the pressure of suffering, and out of the body, the luminous being will emerge; for others, the mind will mirror the outside world and turn to chaos, and thus the being will devolve. The transformation of darkness to light happens inside of us, first, then the outside follows. Do not get pulled into the chaos by feeding into fear and all the confusion that will be projected at the population – you can see it already happening.

One must develop the strength to look the devil in the eye, for he is showing himself in all places these days. Look at the evil showing itself all over the world, become conscious of it, and then become the light of courage and love. This is how the new age will manifest - by us all becoming conscious of it and the lies and manipulations that we’ve been under for so long. If you can do this within yourself, your outside world will follow suit – as within, so without.

There are many pieces to this puzzle and some are spoken of in my previous articles, so if you haven’t yet, check those out. More pieces of this puzzle will be coming soon, and as more of the bigger picture reveals itself, I’ll be sure to share with you the insight that I receive from it. Please share with those who also seek, or who might be feeling a bit confused in these times, and as always, shine bright.